My Heavenly Father Loves Me

7:00 am (Krew let me sleep in a whole hour this morning, "thanks little buddy," as Kali would say.) Instead of waking up to the usual 6:00 am hungry cry, I woke up to the coolest thing in the whole world. Krew was making the cutest cooing sounds and laughing, so I went into his room and found him looking up at the picture of Jesus in his room and he was just talking away. I couldn't get a good picture of it but it was so awesome. My mind flashed back to when Kali was a baby and when she would look at pictures of Jesus and smile and coo. What do they know? What do they remember? There is so much to be learned from these little ones. Many of you know, but I really struggled for the first couple of months with two children. I felt as if I was in a state of depression. I didn't feel as if I was caring for both of these special spirits the way that I should. I felt guilty for not giving both of them all my attention. I was feeling pulled in two separate directions and I felt as if I was failing at EVERTHING:( I am so blessed to have an amazing husband who told me, the only thing he wanted for me to do was make sure the kids were happy and healthy, taken care of, and he would help with the rest. The laundry, dishes, cooking, house cleaning, etc. That really did help lighten my load and relieve A LOT of stress. Thank you so much, Aaron:) I remember the one thing that brought me peace of mind when it came to the kids was when Krew would smile and laugh at me and he seriously started doing this the day he was born. I know most of you are thinking, sorry Shanae, it was just gas, but whatever it was it made me feel my Heavenly Fathers love for me and helped me get through that difficult time. I could never video it because the second the camera came out, he would stop and not perform for me, I finally got a little bit on camera the other day while in Waikiki, so you can have a little taste of my happiness I get from Krew every morning and other random times throughout the day.


Today was a hard day for me, but the biggest blessing was having Kali by my side reminding me to be happy. She really is a HUGE blessing in my life. If I am ever sad or having a hard time she always says, "be happy mom" it immediately brightens my day:) Today I struggled with some incompetent, rude secretary's from the dentists office over the phone, my day as previously planned was falling apart so I had called them to try and reschedule for another day since I would have two children with me and no car. (babysitters weren't working out and Aaron needed the car for work) No big deal I thought we will just do this next week on a day Aaron doesn't work. But NO, they wanted to charge me $50.00 to reschedule, I was like are you kidding me, really, $50.00. O.K. then I was out to show them. I found Aaron a ride to work, THANK YOU ANGIE, and thank you for offering to watch Kali, I was determined though to "show them" what a mistake they had made by making me bring my two children in. I don't know why I get this way, Aaron even told me to relax and just pay the money and we will take care of it next week, he didn't want me to be stressed out. He really does love me. But of course like I said I was determined and wanting to do this. So off I went on our hour drive to the dentist office, I was sure when we got to the office Krew would be screaming and Kali would be wanting to run around and cause mad chaos, which sadly, I was hoping for. I know I am terrible. Well, I was humbled, my kids were out to teach ME a lesson and teach me they did. They slept the whole way to the dentist office they were ANGELS inside the office, not a peep or a cry, nothing. I did sort of break down when the dental assistant came to get me and ask why I had my kids with me, I told her the secretary's were rude and incompetent, I felt bad because the dentist actually yelled at them for not rescheduling me. All said and done, my tooth is refilled, life is good. My children taught me to step back, relax, and be happy. Act as a representative of Jesus Christ at all times, in all things and in all places:)